April 20

I had my first treatment today. It was more intense and I am just sitting here shaking my head trying to find words to describe it. I think I will try and describe what happened.

We got to the clinic at 3... Had a short meeting with Dr. Grettha, She made a very brief attempt to explain the method and the reasons behind it. I didn't really understand a lot. Something about Murcury being the cause of all toxins and the way to get it out is by using tobacco that has been treated with nano particles that grab onto it and force it out. then I was separated from my mom and taken into a room with a copper table, sheet metal walls and ceiling and a hospital type curtain. ..

I took off all my clothes except underwear, My 2 nurses did not speak English, so there was some Indonesian spoken and a lot of sign language. They laughed a lot, and so did I. First I drank something that was not too bad, then water then given a little eyecup full of liquid called "eyewash 1" I put it up to one eye and opened and closed while Fajuada blew smoke through a tube in my ear, and up my nose... then the other side. Then pour the rest of the eyewash on my head...

not so bad. I ws just trying not to think about it too much and really surrender. Next was a rubdown with white wet scrubby stuff, front and back, now I was wet and lying on this wet table. then they smoked me with big syringes (no needle) all over my whole body and head. probably 70x ... they would smoke, blow into the syringe while pulling the plunger and put the tip on my skin and push it in... It was so crazy and fast, at this point, Adi, a young man was standing there quickly filling syringes and the whole thing took around 5 minutes.

I can't say what I was thinking, everything went so fast and they were having me roll over and I couldn't understand anything... then more rubdown, covered with hot wet cloths and then a wrinkly metal blanket with just my nose out and left for 5 minutes...

then they came back...and I had to smoke a cigarette ( all of the cigarettes have special filters that have the stuff that take out the toxins ) I feel dizzy and nauseous ...Next Fajuada and Joom rubbed me down with something else and hit me all over, HARD. ..face the wall and Enema. My mind was kind of reeling, the rest was just more of the same, rub me down, hit me , smoke me, enema, wet and covered with all kinds of stuff, drink something else tastes bad... finally coffee rubdown and then I could shower. And it feels so good, but I also feel quite nauseous and I can't believe what has just happened ... then Dr. Grettha used a hollow bone to smoke my head and up my nose and that was pretty painful ...and that is it. the people are so nice and friendly, we laughed and I am glad it is over.

they gave us several types of cigarettes to take home and we are prescribed which ones to smoke and when, plus 2 things to drink 2 things to enema and 2 things to rub ourselves down with before we return each day. We both still feel pretty strange, and can taste the tobacco in the back of out throats when we take the taxi home past all the crazzzy Indonesian streets ... Mom is passed out watching tv and I am so ready to sleep but the coffee and cigarettes make me jittery. I am told it will go very fast and that it will be very easy to get the murcury and the cancer out.

I can imagine how insane that sounds, but I am here doing it and it seems perfect somehow. I can't comment on it or think about it too much, and when I got home, I put on the ipod and lay on my bed, It played Do it again by Steeley Dan and that is what I am going to do...