This is me in front of the hotel right after Balur... I still have the stains from the smoke...

and next is the street outside the clinic... and finally, the durian fruit in the market.. the whole place stinks!!!

Today in my treatment I had Reina and Faidja... they are kind of my favorites. During the 2nd round of smoking, Faidja started coughing and choking and she went into the bathroom and almost threw up... I asked if she was sick and Reina sayd that she might have taken some of my free radicals and she had to get them out... everybody felt dizzy today. not me so much...

It must be hard not to take on the sickness of the patients, some days more than others.

My mom is watching MTV... Ke$sha is singing Blah Blah Blah...

I brought a CD I made to the clinic today. We all sang Take a chance on me... ABBA

and A whole new World...It was nice. Adi, one of the young guys that smokes for us sometimes asked of I minded if he came into the room today while he made syringes... He is really funny and asks a lot of questions. It is funny to me when he is in there ... probably because I am nude and soaking in liquid, but I don't care... when they tell me "face up!" and I flip over he always says .."good moving!"

I am making soup and we will eat in tonight... It is a challenge to get food! especially vegetables.

What I wouldn't give for Inaka. and some blue corn chips

It is raining ... thunder. It is the end of the rainy season which is good because there is less typhoid around. yikes... but the balur takes it away anyway.

Thanks to April and Analise who made my sarongs into skirts...! I wear one every day.. it is so hard to put on pants when you are standing in 2 inches of water... the skirts go over the head... It is the simple things that thrill me these days.

I think I needed to get this cancer to persuade me to really change my ways... it makes sense that sometimes you have to be forced. I will surely never go back to my same way of living and thinking...

xxxooo love you all!