day 2

yesterday was day 2

I smell like coffee. I just did my morning rubdown with strong coffee and you can't really wash it off. I am still kind of in shock because of what happened yesterday. I found out how easy they were on me that first day. During my treatment at one point Rohanna and Dr. Grettha came in and Rohanna had a familiar look on her face. I asked her if I should be terrified , she said no but I was so sure something was coming. Dr. Grettha is a pretty small wire-y about 70 years old and she has a very strong presence and sense of humor. She smoked my head with the hollow bone and there were 3 women blowing smoke into the syringes and smoking my body...Rohanna was making syringes too.

then a whirlwind started happening, it was like a tornado. Remember yesterday when they hit me? Well that was a totally different kind of hitting than what was now going on. Dr Grettha got up on the wet filthy table and hit me so hard I could hardly believe it. in a rhythm 1,2 - 1,2 - 1,2...

I though about the scene in that movie where the bullies hit the hero with a cricket bat. I was laughing, Dr. was telling the girls where to blow the smoke, 3 of them. and my head was spinning. sometimes I would see Rohanna out of the corner of my eye and her face was so serious. Dr. was striking me, I was face down and I didn't want to yell but I had to ,... I think it was in the shape of OWW.

It was like they were chasing something in my body, they were frantically rubbing different things on me, ... she said "Mercury OUT!" I said it too and Rohanna reminded me to summon all my powers and command the cancer out. I want to tell you that I though of all your love and support but during the hitting there was only me. the pain was so sharp and it burned and then she had me join her and hit myself... this is an open hand, slap with the heal of the palm having the most force.

Now face up... We chased that Cancer all over, I was laughing and screaming ... I had to take a break. I asked Dr, if she was maybe tired and needed a break , and we all laughed. She said "do I look tired to you?" she was in fact sweating and smiling crouched over wet naked me like a cat and she did not look tired at all. so We continued, I think this lasted for hours but probably only 20 minutes.

When it was over, I felt like my whole head was going to rain, I didn't cry but I didn't try not to.

I am exhausted just trying to write about it. After was like a dream and now I am sore all over.

A bunch of other stuff happened, I got a rice steamer! Watched American Idol... life goes on...

they call my mom "mommy" at the clinic and yesterday they asked her why she came with me...

she said because she didn't want me to be all alone. How Can you beat that?