the waterfall... me, Nounkie, Raina and mom
the Batu crew + little van
it was cool and so prettyYesterday was our day off and 2 gals + one friend took us to a mountain town called Batu...
we went in a tiny van and it was really pretty... we went through big bamboo forests and to a park/farm area and saw this beautiful waterfall... they grow all kinds of stuff and on the way we saw people harvesting corn and cabbage and other stuff.
Last night in my room I heard a wierd call... of an animal I could not place, I was so scared! It sounded like it was right outside my door. Kind of like kUoo-kooooo000, first note higher than the second... I went outside and there were new guests and I repeated the sound for them and they laughed and said it was a harmless lizard, good luck in fact. But I was still freaked out. Also I heard something climbing around on the roof and down the walls but I flashed my flashlight all around and saw nothing and it sounded clumsy and like it fell down and then it was gone. I went outside to turn off the porch light and when I touched the switch it had scary little beetles on it! So today I moved downstairs to safety... I really gave it my best shot and I thought about perception and what is the worst thing that can happen in there and I realized nothing can happen...still I am happy to have moved... internet in the room! Maybe I can watch itunes movies..
Today while waiting to release my morning enema I lay on my bed and made energy balls and sent love and light to all my cells...I am gaining focus again. I also found ( in my imagination ) a baby unicorn and put it on some green grass in a tiny coral inside my left breast to keep love and good vibes in there. I am not fighting cancer but working to turn stranger cells back into perfect healthy cells. When I first went to this clinic I met a Dr. Can't remember his name... he had a thick accent and limited vocabulary. He studied cancer and wrote his masters thesis on it... he said cancer cells are your family that has turned into foreigners. Nothing to be scared of... you just have to turn them back into your family...
Balur in an hour...
I am going to feed the unicorn baby my old cells.
xxoo
o rozzle.
ReplyDeleteyou in a place you do not know.
you being so brave.
you being touched by beetles on light switches.
you and a unicorn baby in all your cells.
you and your growing, healing family & body.
you are so amazing.
your courage is overwhelming.
and your faith.
and you.
axo.
Such beautiful imagery - the baby unicorn...I glad you moved out of that godforesaken room. Cuddle up downstairs in the bamboo.
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Steph
this is my favorite story. my baby unicorn is sending your baby unicorn a pie made of sweet grass and a note that says "love you!"
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ReplyDeleteSomeone told me today that FEAR is Forgot Everything's All Right.
I love you.
pinney
hi, roz, debbie here, back from a week visiting my 83 yr old mama in santa cruz. wow,im energized, and reading today's post is so uplifting! i long ago rejected western medicine's idea that illness is to be hated and feared. how can anyone heal thru that negativity>? love to your little unicorn, and to bringing your stranger cells back into your family. You inspire me, much love and light.xo
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